So I’ve hesitated for quite some time now to begin writing my 1st post here. I guess it stems from my tendency to have things “just right.” It’s like owning a new journal or book and making your first mark upon it’s bare pages. Well, it’s time to jump in & start swimming. To begin with, I’d like to state my purpose for creating this site. I have an addiction. I’ve been caught in a web of pornography & sexual addiction for some 20 years; and I’m not talking about the kind of cobwebs you sweep easily out of the corner of your room with a rag or broom. I’m talking about the large, incredibly sticky, “WATCH OUT FRODO!” kind of web.

To continue with the Lord of the Rings visual, I’ve often felt like that little hobbit entering the giant spider Shelob’s lair – alone in an uninviting, dangerous cave. I too have at times sent my true friends away, thinking that I could handle things on my own, only to learn that the one I chose to trust was leading me right into a trap. I’ve also at times remembered the light of Eärendil, the “light…in dark places, when all other lights go out.” But as dangerous as it was and because my heart had become filled fear I too have let go of the light and found myself intoxicated by the enemy’s venom & bound by her sticky cords. At times I’ve felt quite like that mission-bound hobbit hedged on my journey, wrapped in the spider’s silken strings awaiting, not victory, but defeat as the poison slowly works its course within me.

I’ve felt the sting of regret, the draining power of poor choice & the despair of hopelessness. However, the reason I write to you today is to stand as a very real witness to the hope there is in the Light. We may at times let fear overcome us and loose sight of this brilliant power as did Frodo convincing ourselves that there is no escape, no hope and no reason to go on, but we’d be doing ourselves a great disservice to internalize this dismal message. There are those who love us and who would bring back the Light that we let go of. We’ll always need to fight if we are to obtain any sort of freedom. There is ALWAYS hope!

This blog is my journey of hope to obtain freedom from pornography addiction & the accompanying baggage that follows such an addiction. I do not consider myself an addict, but rather a child of divine parentage who has fallen into one of the many traps that a very real enemy lays to ensnare each of us in our journey towards the Light.

It is my firm belief that we are all children of a loving Father and that he’s sent his Son, Jesus Christ to, in some incredible way, provide us the power necessary to change our behavior and free ourselves from all types of addiction, I wish to invite everyone, regardless of beliefs or faith, to join me in an enlightening journey of hope.

My goal with this blog is to shed light on the true nature of pornography use and the many lies that are told to bring its viewers into bondage. This investigation will include words from prophets of God as well as understandings from modern science about the nature of addiction. It is also my intent to instill hope in my own heart and in the hearts of all those who wander in the darkness of pornography. I desire to inspire action and encourage commitment to truth and will do this with stories, music, assignments and with other moving means. Lastly, I want to facilitate successful freedom from porn addiction and other sexual addiction by providing resources and tools that truly make sense, that help utilize hope and commitment to change.

I feel love in my heart for all those who struggle as I do. I pray that if you are struggling that you would open your heart to the possibility of a life filled with light and love as you sincerely seek to gain your own personal freedom from addiction. You CAN learn to be in control of your thoughts, feelings and behaviors just as you can learn to play the piano or speak German.

Glory to God