Antonio says:

I hate watching pornography. Every second of watching or masturbating makes my self esteem very low. I detest and hate every minute of this shet. If i could i would kill myself for watching and spending my precious time. I don’t know ho i began doing this. Probably, i did it because of puberty at first. Then was more interested because nobody shows his naked ass for free except in pornography. Every man has a will to be in sexual relationship but needs to control it. It is very difficuly to conrol.At least for me. I am trying to overcome this shet but i don’t know wheter i will succeed or not. But i will keep on working to stop. I am not a bad person. I love an art, music, soccer. I have never hurt anybody. If i see some old guy being discriminated by young guys, i will without any doubt and kick the asses of those young guys. If smn needs help, i am the first person to give a help. No matter who is asking. I don’t know why i am stuck in this thing. It is very bad but it allures you. I think the reason i am doing this is because i am too perfectionist. I try to make 100% achievement from every opportunity and do it successfully sometimes. Maybe i am too much stressed because of making verything 100% and trying to relax using pornmo. I must understand that nothing is pefect in this world. It is good to make it perfect but in some cases there is no way that you can make it 100% or sometimes you must say. that’s enough, i need a rest. I for some reason always take the most difficult jobs and try to beat everyboyd , each student in my class even the teacher. Is it bad? Probably, no but i think this is making me get stressed a lot. I even don’t go outside in order to save time and work even more. I don’t take it as an insult when people say that i am a workaholic. Should i? I don’t know it seems to me that being a workaholic is good. I even sometimes don’t celebrate New Year or Christmas with my family. Why? Because i want to work even harder, more, longer, i need to be number one. No matter whtat the circumstances are. I must be number one. I can’t lose. Isn’t that silly to some extent? Aren’t the mistakes teach us more than wins? Isn’t it good making mistake and learning from it? Is it bad working 24/7? Is it bad trying to make everything pefect? Is it possible? i don’t know. If i find answes to these questions, i think i will gain my confidence again and will overcome this shet. I hate people who make it and people who post it for free. Pornagraphy is bullshet. True real love is power. Only beautiful women, art, music can save the world and can inspire people to live again not naked whores and assholes who nail them. Having an orgasm in the toilet is the worst thing which can happen to a person. Being married, hacing kid, licing in a beautiful house and driving a nice car may be cheap but still having and driving is my passion. Maybe i will overcome this, may be not. But i truly believe that there are many beautiful women in the world. One of whom belongs to me or will be mine in future. In order to deserve being with such a beautiful woman in future i must win this game now and stop masturbating and watching naked asses. I am a very good, smart person and i must find the path to this question and i will. From today i will stop watching this bulshet and will return to the crowd of good people. I believe in myself, i am the captain of soulf and my fate. I can do it. I CAN DO IT and I WILL DO it.